About me

I intended to participate in Holidailies this year, but when I checked the site on December 1st, it still said to check back soon. Apparently, they had things up right after that, scheduled to begin on December 5th, but I didn't see it until December 6th. It is now the 7th and I am going to try and play along with the home version, even though I haven't registered. I will see how it goes. Today, I am using one of their writing prompts, it said to introduce yourself. Since many of you have been reading along, you may already know something about me, but I will try to fill in some of the blanks.

I turned fifty this year, I guess that is middle age (and since I probably won't live to be 100, I suppose I have been there for a while). Yet, I do not feel middle aged, I feel like I am in the beginning stages of so many things. There is still so much I want to do, so many things I have yet to finish (or even begin), so much I am still learning. I hope that I never stop learning and evolving.

I live in Ohio, I have my entire life. I have been married (and divorced) twice, I have two sons (both now grown) that I primarily raised by myself. I now have three grandchildren, ages six, five and (almost) three. I also have three dogs (my surrogate children) and one cat that my oldest son left behind. I am trying to finish my college degree, but am currently on hiatus from school, due to money and transportation. I work in a day program with individuals who have disabilities and/or mental health disorders. I am sure that there are a lot more of the incidentals that I could include here, but my memoirs or biography would take up much more room than a blog post.

I always thought that life would get easier as I got older. I thought that things would slow down and I would have time for all of those someday things. I also thought that I would be much more financially secure. Those things might have happened, but I have made certain decisions in my life that impacted that. Some of those decisions I regret, most of them I don't. I sometimes wonder how I will ever be able to retire and since I don't know, I plan to work forever. I do enjoy working though and just staying home, for whatever reason, just does not work for me. I still am determined to finish my degree, I still hope it will happen in 2009, but even if it takes longer than that, I absolutely will do it (I am very close). I still plan to go for my Masters after that, and maybe another undergrad, since my interests and goals keep expanding. Heck, if I can go to school for a really long time, eventually I will die and stick the government with my unpaid loans.

I love to write and I will continue to do it. I know I could be much better at it and that is my goal. Maybe, with much luck and work and commitment, I may get published someday. I have a couple of short stories that my sister keeps pestering me to submit, but I don't think they are good enough, though I am flattered that she does. At the very least, I want to write something for my children and grandchildren (and whoever comes along after that). Some thoughts, traditions, family history, parts of my life that I don't ever want them to know until after I am dead, that is what I want to leave behind for them. I want to show them who I really was and why, though I might not have those answers yet. Writing is something that I make time for, regardless of how busy I become.

There are so many things that I love to do. I don't know if I would call them hobbies, because there are too many of them and I don't devote enough time to any of them. Some of those things are: quilting, sewing, cooking, gardening, various art projects, volunteering, reading, camping, hiking, travelling, entertaining, there's more, but isn't that enough? When I was younger, I owned and showed horses. I always thought I would, someday, do that again. Now, I don't have any idea where the time, money or energy for that would come from, but then again...

I sort of live my life with a someday attitude. No, I am not putting things off, I am actually very busy. There is just so much I want to do, and rather than tell myself I can't, I tell myself I will do it someday. What I ever get to actually depdends on how long I live. If I rely on family history to predict that, I will make it into my eighties (and be active until the end). My personal history, as a smoker and a cancer survivor, may negatively effect that. But when I am gone, I am gone, until then I am going to keep at it and do as much as I can.

Spiritually, I classify myself as a Christian, but others view me more as a Universalist. Whatever label I wear, I know what I believe, but I am also constantly seeking and open to other theologies. I do have a strong faith and it has seen me through a lot. Though other Christians might think I am a heretic. I do find wisdom and value in all sorts of religions, beliefs and philosophies and I don't have a problem incorporating pieces of it all together. Maybe all of us are wrong, but in the end, I just don't want to have led a hypocritical life.

Politically, I am very liberal, maybe a Socialist, but I am also practical. What that means is that I won't start a revolution, but I didn't say I wouldn't support one. I have a global sense of responsibility, we are citizens of the world. I know there are needs within our own country, but the poverty and injustice outside our borders makes me cry. I think we all have a responsibility to do something about it, and if that means someday (there's that word again) flying halfway around the world, I will. My favorite quote: Be ashamed to die until you have won some victory for humanity. ~ Horace Mann

That's what I really want, for Google to actually have the answers to all the hard questions. Other than that, you have me in a nutshell. Oh, except for the whole kink/sex/submissive part, for that read my other blog. If I've left anything out (and I've left a whole lot out) feel free to ask me about it. I just might tell you, and then again, I might not.